Well at the beginning of this journey I wanted all eyes on me. I thought somehow by having people watching my journey it would make me a better person, a person who could achieve lasting weight loss and reach my goal for myself and my daughter. From stories on my journey on CNN, the Local paper and my works newsletter. I thought I had what I needed an audience to keep me faithful.
Well the TRUTH is I was wrong
The TRUTH is I failed
The TRUTH is the people watching saw not lasting weight loss but a man who weighs just as much now as he ever did.
and finally the TRUTH is no one will even see this post because in all reality the TRUTH is no one is watching, reading, or caring…
I do now know the TRUTH: I do not need an audience, I need a change inside me.
As you may or may not have noticed it has been a while since my last post.
I more than anyone would like my story to be the perfect one, but it is not.
I had a check up with the Dr. today and while my blood sugar is still good I have gained quite a bit of weight.
Yes that is right have gained back up to 356lbs.
A lot of emotions are flooding me right now from Anger, Guilt, and sadness. I will however move on. I am back on track and I never thought this was going to be easy in fact it is probalY one of the hardest things I will ever do.
I must keep moving, I must keep on I want to keep my promise to my daughter,my wife, and to MYSELF.
SO IF YOU ARE OUT THERE PLEASE STAND BESIDE ME AS WE KEEP ON THIS JOURNEY TO HEALTH AND HAPPINESS!!!
Recieved my lab work today and my A1C is 5.6 my other labs are also working their way down to the normal range.
I have however gained a few pounds as I have had a few bad days lately and have slacked off on exercise. I am still pushing forward and have corrected my shortfalls.
I realize now that even one day a week of slacking off makes a big difference for me.
Weight-loss is not one size fits all I am finding my niche and working closer to goal.
The journey does continue as I WILL NOT break my promise to my little girl.
Had a great walk Saturday benefiting the March of Dimes
A big thank you to Jessica for raising so much money and being a great friend to our family.
Photos to come soon……
The quote below describes me lately. Honestly I got lost with the big picture which was discouraging.
I have such a long way to go to be at the weight I want to be. I have let this haunt me lately but I need to focus on one day at a time, one goal at a time. I need to enjoy the journey and awesome time spent with my family on that journey.
Now lets get busy!!!
"In the hopes of reaching the moon men fail to see the flowers that blossom at their feet."
— Albert Schweitzer
Not feeling well the last few days. Today I do feel a lot better and I am ready to face the day.
Spent the day out on my grandpa’s land walking and enjoying the scenery. I saw many deer and it was very quite and beautiful.
Perfect place to spend a day being active.
Thank you everyone for all the support and wonderful comments. I know eyes will be watching and it adds to my determination to go all the way!!
Now we are off to the Foster Care awareness walk.